Christmas...

well normally this blog is funny but this time its a bitch...or what should I call it.
just wanna say I HATE CHRISTMAS and as everybody else enjoys it..i dont..coz it reminds me that I DONT HAVE a FAMILY and I dont really have anything to be happy about.and btw..why is everyone happy during Christmas?Just because they have to?because of kids?just because it was said in Bible???yeah right..and 2 days later people are in their skin again..and screeming and swearing..and fighting and so on...DO IT THROUGH CHRISTMAS...DO IT..DONT BE AFFRAID...FIGHT...COME ON.
you see these people giving each other presents and smiling..yeah..tell me what is hiding really behind that smile...is it really happiness?is it??
i think who is really happy and LOOOOVE Christmas are only kids...why?coz they too small and dont really know what the hell Christmas are about...yeah...Jesus was born..great...and?they dont know that..or dont care about it.yeah..sorry I fergot..there is this dressed up old man..who suppose to come into your house through chimny...and drop some presents off and fly away on these weard flying animals...he and everyone else call them dears???hm..nice..now we are getting into the story..
when I was a kid I used to love Christmas,coz I used to go for walk with my mum and watched lights and christmas trees in the windows of the houses on the streets...thats was very nice, snow was crunching away under your feet, stars shining on the sky and it was cold as..but it was nice..yeah thats was my Christmas..but thats gone...gone 14years ago...gone and never will come back and I just wanna cry...even im getting older and older each year...and its been 14 years...when Christmas comes it feels like it only happend yesterday.and I HATE CHRISTMAS.... and then questions next day..or days after..." what did Santa bring you???hm..where you good enough to get something???" yeah..right..i got this big vibrator...yeah...and it works without batteries...works non stop...i wanna see people's face what they gonna say for that...or should I say that i only got presents what christians allow us to get??? like jumper,socks shoes and some lollies...bullshit....I got VIBRATOR...btw..its non of anybodies business what I got...really nothing..coz i dont have a family...or should I say i got smile and good feeling that im included into someones family..just to feel like I do have one...
damn thats enough now...enoough of this bullshit...roll on January...























